Noticing how people in the two ethanol cessation communities I visit tend to keep count of the days/weeks/months that they’ve been ethanol-free makes me hyper aware of the potential peril of that practice. Counting perpetuates a sort of drinking dilemma. Read More …
Life is difficult. The timing of this was perfect for me coming out of a few days of darkness, and happy to report that despite the dark mood, the monster was nowhere to be found. Read More …
Here’s a little diary of the mining & Tapping I did in the first few days. I’m laying myself bare here. Now knowing that much of my drinking was to NOT FEEL, this has been Read More …
When I was starting on this journey to stop drinking it was not an emergency, no rock bottom here, it was just a building of knowing I wanted to change. I wanted to feel good. I Read More …
A huge benefit of not using ethanol that keeps popping up for me, is that “the peace that passes all understanding” is so much more evident in my everyday life. In this Eckhart Tolle clip, he says sometimes Read More …
After I’d become a mother, my mother revealed to me that she had always worried that I might be too sensitive to have kids; that I was such an empath, so sensitive, that I might Read More …
I wrote this as the holidays were approaching. There are these little life events that were repeated over and over, over the years, where familiar images and sensations were branded into our brains and Read More …
It appears I am dealing with stuff that I usually used ethanol and lifestyle to ignore or suppress. The “issues” have no real names; they can’t be verbalized, which is quite a challenge for me Read More …